Rabbit Holes

Rabbit holes suck. Literally. By definition, a rabbit hole is a metaphor for something that transports someone into a wonderfully (or troublingly) surreal state or situation. In Alice and Wonderland, Alice falls into a disorienting unknown place and tries to find her way out. Man, I can completely relate. Lately, it seems as though we have been facing rabbit hole after rabbit hole… Like an entire field full of booby traps that dump you into a deeper, more complex hole. And, these aren’t the wonderful, surreal states or situations. The holes we’ve found ourselves tossed into are troubling, confusing, overwhelming and exiting the holes have real physical pain and life long consequences.

The good news, though, is that the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalms 34:18). I feel His presence. With everything that has happened with my daughter’s back and now to be facing knee surgery (again), I am amazed and encouraged by her attitude. At first, she said, “Why does God hate me?” I reminded her (and myself) that she has been chosen by God himself. She is God’s very own, all of this so that she may show to others how God called her out of the darkness and into His wonderful light (1 Peter 2:9).

Her attitude has been way better than mine in the last 24 hours. I’m like a roller coaster of emotions. I don’t think it’s fair and I’m pretty angry, scared, confused and yet so happy that I still have a beautiful, healthy daughter that will recover from injury. This week, a sweet family in our community had to say goodbye to their six year old daughter. A colleague lost both of her parents over Christmas. A dear, sweet friend lost her husband for no reason. The list of tragedies, death and darkness can plague us if we are not careful. That rabbit hole can close up around us if we do not keep our eyes on the Lord.

So, today, I shall rest in the Lord’s plan. I don’t know why I’m even writing this, except, maybe the verses that I have meditated on this morning can bring someone else closer to the surface and we can get out of our rabbit holes together.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weakness, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10